Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Summa time

Today I wrote my last exam in high school, and I have to say, it feels good. I think I did well on almost all my exams (I fucked up one of my math exams with poor time management), but the more rewarding feeling comes from the fact that I know I don't have to try anymore.

Today I asked out this girl that I've had my eyes on for a while. She told me she was busy today, but she'll go out with me some other day. This story gets interesting a few weeks back. Everybody was buzzing about prom, since midterm exams were done and a few people already 'promposed'. I was planning on asking this girl for a while, and I finally came up with a good idea. So on a Friday night, I go out with some buddies, and the night ends with me driving my best friend back. I tell him about my plan to ask the girl to prom, but he then told me that Friday morning, he asked he and she said yes... Boy, that was an awkward car ride. Then, for the next couple of weeks, my best friend and my only choice for prom were dating. They broke up about two weeks ago, and after getting my friend's blessing on Saturday, I asked her out today.

So I'm going to prom this Friday (whatever) and am going to a cottage to party it up for the weekend. The guy who planned the cottages somehow planned it so only guys were supposed to come. I took the situation into my own hands and invited a group of girls, specifically the aforementioned girl. I invited her back when my best friend was dating her. After their break up, my best friend talked about it and he said that he doesn't want to hang out with the clique of girls at the cottage. I finally got it out of him that things between him and the girl are awkward. I know for a fact that it's him who's making their relationship awkward, but who cares... What's gonna happen if me and the girl hook up, especially at the cottage?

After lazing around for about a month, spending all my time 'studying', I started running last week. I want to start endurance training, which involves going to the gym and running/doing abs at home. So far the running isn't going great, I keep getting pain in my shin (shin splints I think) and it stops my runs from being as successful as possible. I'm going to try running with some stretching next time, so I can maybe avoid that pain. Hopefully, I can get my ass to the gym after this weekend, when I come back from the cottage. After all, I have to get the right kind of body for when I go to university.

Now that summer time is here for me, I've been thinking that I really need a job. Right now I'm almost broke and I'm surviving off my mom's 'food' money. Plus my tuition at university is going to be really expensive, so I plan to start saving for that. I'll start chucking resume's into banks and apply online sometime this week. Hopefully someone will at least interview me this time, unlike the past two years.

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

How to do everything

There are three aspects of your life that you need to take care of to be happy. After all, most of use are in the pursuit of happiness. I see happiness as my number one goal in everything I do in my life. Even if that means being selfish or destroying certain morals, I don't care, I just wanna live my days with happy memories. Of course, there are many people that are exceptions to the happiness thing... One of my best friends is constantly unhappy because all he wants is pride. But that's a different story. I'll just assume that you're into happiness and not something else.

The first aspect that you're going to have to focus on is your physical health. Trust me, this is the easiest aspect of your life as it is the most straightforward. Your physical health is going to improve your life on so many levels since it makes every motion you make easier and your general 'feeling' better. Like right now, I've let myself loose for exams since I've been spending a lot of time studying. (Not really though. I have to pretend so my parents will be willing to pay for university. In reality, I have been watching How I Met Your Mother. Great show.) Just sitting in front of my computer and typing up this post, I feel like total ass. I can feel my last meal being slowly digested, and if I hold my breath for too long, I get a head rush. To avoid this, doing anything regularly will make you feel better. I like to go to the gym on weekdays, but this isn't universal. As long as you're doing something that is making you move, you're on the right path.

The second aspect is your social health. This is not so straightforward, in fact, it's probably the hardest of the three. You want to make sure you generally have good relationships with people, of course you want to go out and do stuff. I personally analyze every situation with my friends, and find little 'mechanisms' for our interaction. After a while of knowing someone, I have some general guidelines for what to do to interact with them. Somehow I've managed to be the only peaceful person at our family dinners while everyone else starts fights with them, I've managed to lead the conversation when talking to my bros, but I'm still having some trouble with the ladies. Not to say that I haven't made progress... I just don't like the contrast between my current situation and my desired situation. I can't give any advice, really, on how to do this... Everyone has to figure it out on their own I guess. I plan to make several posts regarding how my social life is going: mainly the problems that I'm figuring out. This can give you some insight into how I manage.

The third aspect is your mental health, and by this I don't mean not having any disorders or conditions. This might be an easy task for some people, depending on who you are, because the ultimate goal is to keep your brain satisfied when you're by yourself. In short, this means find a hobby. Music and games are what most people like to do. I have a variety of interests, but mainly I'm interested in TV, the stock market, and some video games. Recently I've been watching How I Met Your Mother. It's okay, the plots really thin as it's mostly just main characters flipping in and out of relationships. but I really enjoy the one liners and some of the morals. The stock market has always been a hazey subject for me as I am always super confused. By this point I know some jargon, but my opinions are usually guesses and usually incorrect. I also play StarCraft, and real time strategy game that's really demanding. I've recently been promoted to diamond on the north american server, so I'm not doing too bad.

I wanna end this by stating the necessary balance between these three aspects. It is crucial that all aspects are focused on, otherwise, you will always be unhappy with one part of your life. Notice how I described all the aspects with the word 'health'? That's because you need all three to be considered 'healthy'. In the same way you can't have a healthy heart but a failing liver, you simply can't focus on one aspect more than another. The metaphor continues: having one healthy aspect in your life helps you achieve healthiness in other aspects. Some examples of this is getting compliments from girls for going to the gym, being motivated by some really good music while running, or playing video games with your friends.

Sunday, May 12, 2013

New Lifestyle

Welcome to the peeping hole.

You may be asking yourself, why is this blog called the peeping hole? Well, it's simple. My name is Alex Sanderson, and I think about life a little differently than most people. I analyze the crap out of every situation, add weight to seemingly meaningless details, all in my head before I go to sleep. The peeping hole is the figurative doorway into my thoughts - all the thoughts that run through my head will be posted online here.

Screw anonymity. I won't skip a detail. I doubt anyone from my life will ever see this blog anyways.

So let's begin, dear Reader, I don't know where to begin. Right now is the 'end of a chapter' moment in my life. I'm finishing up high school, as I only have a couple of exams left to get my diploma. My mom is going crazy about how proud she is and blah blah blah, but I'm more interested in the massive change in lifestyle that's about to occur.

I chose my high school courses ambitiously; I followed my strengths and thought that I would have the right mindset to rape them (before you get suspicious, I just meant I would do well, really well). I went with a very math and science heavy direction. At the time it seemed like a good direction,  but I eventually found out that math and science would piss me off. Why? Well, because I had to try.

I'm not a lazy slob with no motivation in life, in fact I feel like I am quite successful in my life goals. But I took these really difficult math and science courses that would teach a bunch of stuff that you're supposed to learn in university along with all the high school material. So, it was only natural that I would actually have to try each class. I do enjoy doing math and science, but it was really annoying when I would start getting tested on it. I could do fairly well without trying, but fairly well wouldn't get me into the university of my choice.

However all of that is ending. I already got into uni with my midterm marks, and the conditions for the acceptance are much lower than the application requirements. So, I don't have to try anymore, as most of the work is done by me.

So, what's this big lifestyle change? Well, I don't have to try anymore. I'm happy to say that the university of my choice was a very good university, but it's a business school. The reason why its so good is because once I'm done my education there, they can land me a sweet job along with all the other business students. But it's business, a social science... for some people that may be tough, but I know I can wreck it without trying.

Ahh, the effort is low and the reward is high. Sounds sweet, right? The university doubles as a notorious party school. And I can't wait until next week - I'll be done high school, and any difficult math or science with it.